There are two worlds. There's real world, and there's hobby world.
In the hobby world, there are these women. They are drop dead gorgeous. We get to visit with them, and they take off their clothes with us. We are intimate together. After it is over, we have these memories and fantasies, and then later we can do it again, with the same girl or a different one.
In the real world, we have a bunch of middle-aged men with more body hair than hair on our heads, and wider than we are tall. Okay, I exaggerate. But Brad Pitt we are not. We have jobs, and friends, and families, and many of us do not share this hobby among people who know us (although some do).
I am a romantic. The emotional attachment is more important to me than the physical pleasures. I know how to have an orgasm without a woman in the room, but I don't know how to fall in love alone. I also know that the women that I fall in love with are not falling in love with me (with one exception, perhaps). But during the time that we are together, they do; that's part of the fantasy.
So when we are in the real world, we need to be able to separate the fantasy, and keep it locked away, so that we can function, and so that we can keep our secrets.
But this board... It is part of the hobby world. When I am on this board, typing words that you people are going to read, this is part of the world where I love Jennifer. I told her one time that my fantasy (in the hobby world) is to take her for a walk on the boardwalk in The Beaches, hand in hand. This is my hobby world fantasy, where everything is backwards. Fantasies and dreams seem almost impossible, and taking Jennifer out of hobby world into real world, well, that's a fantasy.
I fully understand that in the context of real world, most of the things I write here are ridiculous. In the context of hobby world, though, where my fantasies come true with regularity, it isn't ridiculous. If you could see Jennifer and me together, the look in our eyes, the passion, the desire, this is real in the room. It is real in hobby world.
God, I love hobby world.