Krayjee is right in that there are mind games going on... But its you playing mindgames with yourself.
Your projecting your feelings and at best the gal receives it well, at worst she feels like "oh shit" and cuts you off. I get it, sometimes shit going on outside and the MP experience is like a ray of sunshine. Go chug a beer, fuck a gal and remember the good times.
Dont drive yourself crazy trying to make something imaginary real. I've tried and its not worth it. Go look at all the threads by many massageplanet guys pouring their sorrows out. Its not remotely a thing that ends well if you dive down too deep.
Your projecting your feelings and at best the gal receives it well, at worst she feels like "oh shit" and cuts you off. I get it, sometimes shit going on outside and the MP experience is like a ray of sunshine. Go chug a beer, fuck a gal and remember the good times.
Dont drive yourself crazy trying to make something imaginary real. I've tried and its not worth it. Go look at all the threads by many massageplanet guys pouring their sorrows out. Its not remotely a thing that ends well if you dive down too deep.