There has been some good dialogue on this thread and overall Iโm impressed with much of the support Iโve received.
This whole thing started with what really amounts to my over inflated idea of what I thought the lady thought of me.
Once I realized the truth, it was simply an a-ha moment of self awareness, shame, and humility that wasnโt too nice to feel.
Iโve now rode through all those mixed emotions and am feeling much better.
The main thing was to never lose control, lash out , or do something regrettable , which normally is the natural instinct to lash out.
The lady herself only really noticed I was a little upset, really didnโt think much of it , and in her world, itโs business as usual.
Iโve never thought of this as a game as KJ proposes, perhaps just a single player game, myself and my emotions.
My only decision now is , can I handle seeing her again , which honestly is what I want to do, or do I jump ship?