I can't say how pleased I am that you don't understand... Maybe if I used shorter words... No, even that wouldn't work.
For the benefit and humour of others, however...
Is there really that much difference between an orgasm in her hands and between her legs? It's the same muscle spasm and the same pleasure. I am very close to Gigi; I have given her my heart for the hours when we are together, and then after it's over, that feeling goes into the compartment where I keep this hobby and I'm on to the rest of my happy and contented life, and then when I want to think about her or somebody else, I bring it back out again. It is the healthy way that I get to enjoy my hobby while managing it in my outside life.
But Gigi is my favourite. Kyra is incredible, too - after I see her, I'm not thinking about Gigi.
Arya's amazing. I like her a great deal. We talk and laugh, or at least we do when our moths aren't busy doing other things. I know Arya in the Biblical sense. But I don't love her like I love Gigi and Kyra. You don't need any extras to give your heart away.
Does Gigi love me? Of course she does, but does she love me in the way that a real girlfriend or spouse does? No, and I know it. She simulates that well when we are together, but it's not a complete act. After all, I'm a pretty lovable guy. (Snicker.)
Roman asked me in another thread why I don't ask Gigi to marry me. I had the answer right away - I'll ask her the day that I think that both of us really want to do it. And the chances that that day will ever come are truthfully very low, but I'm allowed to pretend whenever I have my hobby box open and let the dreams turn into reality.
Seems healthier than 40 proposals and rejections.
Sometimes I think that Kyra might be a little more likely to marry me someday.
Okay, time to put the dream box away again. Going away for the weekend.